First Christmas without Faith

Christmas this year for me was better than I thought it would be. While Faith was not with us physically, I believe she was with us in spirit.  We ended up decorating more than we thought we would.  

My mother-in-law was with us this year for Christmas and we had a great visit.  We were able to play games, eat cookies, and just spend good time together.  We went to one of our favorite parks, went to the manatee viewing center, and also went to the beach.

I know that there will never be a day I am on this earth that I do not think of Faith.  I know that there will never be a holiday that I do not think of her either.  While I know these things to be true, I also know that I will see my baby girl again one day, and believe that while I am thinking of her, she is thinking of me.

Merry Christmas Faith.  We love and miss you!

Getting into the Christmas Spirit with Faith

Today we got some Christmas decorating started. The tree is up and the red lights are on it.  My husband thinks one more strand will be good.  I think one or two more will make the lights complete. He put lights out in the back yard and also some lit candy canes.  It is starting to look very nice.

As strange as this Christmas season is/will be, I know that Faith is with us.  She is with the One we are celebrating at Christmas, and for that, I am grateful.

I did not think that I would be able to get into the Christmas spirit too much this year.  However, it seems that I am beginning to get into the spirit.  I believe this Christmas will be great and lead us into an incredibly blessed 2015.

As we go into this Christmas season, I will continue to hold Faith close in my heart, as always.  I know she is celebrating with us.  I love you baby girl.  

Darling Daughter

Today, I have thought a lot about Faith.  My love for her continues to grow as each day passes and I continue to have the best relationship that I can with her.  I know she is in Heaven doing some pretty amazing things!

My husband and I had an amazing time in Buenos Aires.  We are relaxing and also getting ready to put up our Christmas tree.  We got the tree today, so we'll be working on getting the lights on it shortly.  This will truly be a special and blessed Christmas for us this year.

I need to make an ornament with Faith's name for the tree.  It will be very nice.  She is and will continue to be a part of our everyday lives.  The holidays will always include her in a special way.  

She is and will always be our darling daughter.

Capture Your Grief - Day 13 - Season

Today's Capture Your Grief project prompt is Season. 

I guess I really haven't thought too much about a certain season reminding me of Faith.  Although, when I took a moment to do so, it didn't take me long to decide which season/seasons that would be. 

I have to say that the season/seasons that remind me the most of Faith are fall/winter.  We found out that I was pregnant the day before Thanksgiving last year.

Over Thanksgiving time, we went into downtown Seattle to go to see the Nutcracker and to Oliver.  On one of these evenings, I took this picture of a beautiful star that was on one of the buildings, as they had already started to decorate for the Christmas season. 

I also remember going to Starbucks one evening and we all got tasty hot holiday drinks.  I recall I got the apple cider drink, as I knew it didn't have very much caffeine.

We had a great time, and looking back through some of the pictures, reminds me of the wonderful time we had.  We were so excited to be having Faith.  

Fall/Winter will always remind me of Faith.  In a strange way, I am glad that the timing was the way that it was, as I will ALWAYS be Thankful for her and remember her in a very special way at Christmas also.  It is over the holidays of Thanksgiving and Christmas that we tend to focus on the blessings in our lives, so it is quite proper that is when we found out that I was pregnant with Faith.