Today as I was driving, I was listening to a Hillsong CD and this song came on. Although I really enjoy listening to Hillsong, I do not remember if I have heard this song or not, or if I have, it has been quite a while since I have heard it.
Regardless, it is a beautiful song and it brought me to tears. It struck a strong chord in my heart, that I do not believe I have experienced before. I had a new view of God, that I hadn't really thought too much about before. If I love Faith more than life, how must God have felt to WILLINGLY give His only Son for us? I ached for God as I listened to this song.
Then, as I kept listening, I realized how much love He has for me (all the world). Of course I knew that before, but as I listened to this song today, I heard it with my heart and not my head.
Losing Faith has been the most difficult thing I have ever faced in my life. I have never felt pain and aching in my heart and arms as I do now. I cannot know what God felt when he sent us His son, but having lost my baby girl, and hearing this song with my heart, I can truly begin to understand.
Somehow, in the midst of my darkest days, while experiencing some of the most painful times, I felt more love today than I can explain. In my loss, I have a greater understanding of God's love for me and what He gave for me.
What do you feel when you listen to this song?
