A Wonderful Saturday with My Best Friend

Today my husband and I had a wonderful day.  We began the day by going to a beautiful beach.  The sand was so smooth and white.  The water was clear, blue, and beautiful, the sky was bright blue, the breeze was cool.

I love the feeling of the smooth, cool, white beach sand on my feet.  I also picked up quite a few beautiful shells that I will be making some jewelry out of soon.  I am very excited about that, and my husband will tell you that when we go to the beach, I do always have to pick up shells...ha...ha...  

We ate a picnic when we got there and then went for a nice long walk on the beach.  As we ate we saw a dolphin swimming along in the ocean.  It was just breathtaking.  We got some good sun, had some good exercise, and had a great time sharing together.  

I saw many children playing in the water and sand and building sand castles.  We even saw some sand snowmen, which was very cute!  Of course, I thought of Faith during the day, but being in such beautiful nature, made me feel closer to her somehow.  

Then we ate at a very good seafood restaurant and had fish and chips.  I am sure we'll go back!  After that, we went to another beach and walked a bit there.  That was very nice as well.

We did have to stop at Michael's so that I could pick up some jewelry making materials that I need for some things I am getting ready to start making!  Our next adventure was to go enjoy some cool refreshing drinks at another restaurant.  

After that, we went to the Halloween store to see some of the cool things that they sell.  There were a lot of interesting costumes and whatnot for Halloween.  

On the drive home, we saw an amazing sunset, so of course I had to capture that, to add to the other great pictures we had taken today.

Overall, I had a wonderful day and thought of my daughter very much.  While I think of her all the time, I am also realizing that I am still living and I need to do as my husband says "get busy livin or get busy livin".  We don't really give ourselves a choice.  After all that we have been through together, we realize that we need to live life to the fullest each and every day that we are given on this earth.  Each day is a gift from God and we need to treat it as such.  

So, to you, my dear daughter, Faith, we are here, loving you, loving each other, and living life.  I love you baby girl.

Capture Your Grief - Day 2 - Heart

Today is Day 2 of Capture Your Grief - Heart.  Here is the picture that I drew to represent my heart. I just kind of started and this is what I ended up with.  I really like how it came out.  

As I was creating it, I began by the prompting of Carly's directions by putting Faith's name in the heart. Then I decided that I needed to put the blue around her, as losing her made me BLUE. But then, the blue around her name evolved as I continued to draw, and it became a cloud.  

I do not doubt that a part of my heart will always carry the "blue" from the loss of Faith, however, the love that I have for her, will live on as I share her love with others.

As I look at the cloud that I drew around Faith's name on the representation of my heart, I realize that Faith is now in Heaven, but she is and will always be floating in my heart, just like the clouds in the sky.

Capture Your Grief - Day 1 - Sunrise

I have decided to take part in Capture Your Grief created by Carly Marie.  You can see more information about the project here: Capture Your Grief - October 2014.  I think this will give me a great opportunity to explore my grief, as well as share my story and experience with others going through similar grief.  

This project is for the entire month of October.  I am purposing in my heart to use this wonderful opportunity for my daily blog posts.

Day 1 - Sunrise

I was driving this morning when the sun came up here (approx. 7:20 am Eastern Time), so I could not really see the sunrise this morning.  The fact that it was cloudy and rainy did not help the matter either.  But, regardless, I was able to enjoy the beauty of creation and did get to get a nice picture of some brilliant blue sky with some clouds and trees.  

I frequently find myself looking to the clouds more often these days, as I, of course, picture Heaven as beyond the clouds.  I see Faith in the clouds and in all of the beauty of creation now.  For some, this may not make sense, but it makes perfect sense to me.  I see the beauty of the creation we see on earth: clouds, trees, oceans, etc...and realize that we are all creations and should be seen as the beautiful creation that we are.

As I think about looking at nature, in particular, the sunrise/sky, I am reminded that Faith did not get to see a sunrise here or look at the sky. While this saddens me beyond measure, I along with that, also remember Who she saw when she first opened her eyes, and it is There, that I find my Peace.

I will continue to look to the skies until one day I go to be with my daughter again.  Until then, when I see the sunrise, I will smile, close my eyes, take a deep breath and see my baby girl.