Reflections of Mother's Day

I had a very good Mother's Day this year. My parents were visiting, so I was blessed to be able to share Mother's Day with my mother.  It was very nice.  

My wonderful husband gave me a very special card, beautiful roses and a very beautiful charm with Faith's name and birthday for one of my charm bracelets.  

I am so excited to be pregnant with Joy, so it was very nice to celebrate Mother's Day for her.  At the same time, I am certain that Mother's Day will always be a bittersweet day for me.  Faith Melody will always be my first daughter, the beautiful girl who made me a mother.  I love and miss you baby girl.

A New Year With Faith - Thankful

As I begin the new year, this year, I am thinking of all the things I have that I am thankful for.  I have so much to be thankful for: a wonderful husband, great family, nice friends, a warm place to lay my head, food to eat, and so much more...

I am sure some of you already know by now, that I am now pregnant with our second child.  While I am thankful for and very thrilled by this, I am also scared.  Many emotions come into play for me, some of which I have not experienced, and could not have experienced had I not lost Faith. You can only know these feelings if you have experienced this type of loss.

I know The Lord is with me every step of the way.  For that, I am MOST thankful.  I also believe very much that while Faith is not with us in body, that she is with us in spirit and watching over her new young sister or brother.

What are you thankful for this year?

Thanksgiving Meal Today

 Today we made our Thanksgiving meal and enjoyed it with our friend, Gary.  It was a lot of fun cooking and baking together.  We also played pool together.  Overall, we had a very great day.  

While it was a wonderful day overall, I found my mind wondering off to think of Faith (surprise)...

The last time I ate the "Thanksgiving meal" almost a year ago, we had found out the evening before that I was pregnant with Faith.  I don't think I will ever forget the amazing feeling I had when I saw the positive pregnancy test.  I am still so in love with our daughter, actually, more every day.

I think Thanksgiving will always be a bitter-sweet time for me because of finding out that I was pregnant with Faith.  I have enjoyed Thanksgiving as long as I can remember, and I still do, it will just be a little different for me now.