Saturday, February 28, 2015

Faith Melody Memories - Seeking Bloggers

After Faith went to Heaven, I started creating jewelry as a hobby.  I created some pieces that her hand and foot prints in her honor so I can wear them.  I decided I wanted to create these types of items for others.  I recently decided I also want to add my other creations to my shop, as I started making jewelry in Faith's honor.  Truly, each piece I create is special to me and is made with  Faith in my heart and in her honor. 

I am currently seeking a few bloggers that blog about fashion/jewelry that would be willing to do a blog post featuring a piece (supplied for free) made by me.  If you are interested, please send me a message via my contact form.

It is my utmost honor and my heart's desire to share Faith with the world.  I can do this by creating jewelry and sharing it with others.  

Please take a look at my store, Faith Melody Memories, and let me know what you think of my creations.  I also take custom orders if you have something special in mind.

Faith Melody will always be my first child and I will continue to share her love with all that I can.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Almost March...Missing Faith...

Earlier today, as I was texting some of my family and friends a 17 week picture of myself, I very unexpectedly broke down as I started thinking of Faith.  I realized that a year ago I was about this far along with her and we are quickly approaching her first birthday.  

I got out Faith's baby book and looked at her pictures, which, also, unexpectedly, brought me peace. I cried for quite a bit, missing her so much. I long to hold her in my arms so much.  

Although I am extremely thrilled to be pregnant again, I am experiencing so many different feelings and emotions.  Throw pregnancy hormones on top of that, and there you go. Most of the time, I feel fairly normal and good. But then I have those moments that I simply cannot control.  One thing I have learned is that in those moments, it is best for me to embrace the feelings and remember Faith. It helps me so much to do so, and also aides in my "healing", if you will.

I know I will miss Faith until the day I go home to Heaven.  I am also learning about missing her every day.  Each day is a new day, and therefore, a new day of my grief journey...

I love you Faith.

Monday, February 9, 2015

My Faith Walk Today

Today, I am reflecting on my life without Faith.  I am now a little past 14 weeks pregnant with our rainbow child.  Some days I am still not really sure how to feel about being pregnant again so soon. Although I now find myself talking to both Faith and our new baby.  I read to both of them in the morning.  I thank The Lord for both of our children.  I look forward to raising the child I am now pregnant with and to being able to hold Faith again one day in Heaven.  

It has been almost 10 months now since Faith went to Heaven.  I've experienced things that I do not wish on my worst enemy (if I had any enemies, ha ha).  At the same time, retrospectively, I view the day Faith was born as both one of the worst and one of the best/most beautiful days of my life.  I see life so differently than I did before.  Some things simply don't matter.  What does matter is loving people and enjoying every moment we are given on this earth.

I now see myself as a totally different person, however, I still believe the same things I did before.  I believe what I have been through has made my faith walk stronger.  In going through my worst and most difficult experience in life so far, I've chosen to go to God instead of running away from Him. He has given me a peace that is certainly beyond my understanding.  I have said this recently and believe I will continue to as long as I am on this earth: 

"What happened to us and our daughter is not ok, and it will never be ok, but I am ok."  

I am amazed at the peace and grace God has given me and the strength to continue on in life with a positive outlook.

As I move forward in life with Faith in my heart, I will continue to walk with God by faith and trust Him as He continues to walk with me through life.