4 months ago today my baby girl, Faith Melody, went to Heaven. I still cannot believe she is gone. I don't know if I ever will. It is so strange every day that life just keeps going on without her.
I feel like I am having a pretty good day, but as I sit staring at her picture, I realize that I am numb. I haven't been like this since she's been gone, but I have moments where numb is the only way to describe how I feel. It seems like only yesterday that she left.
I think this feeling of numbness is built into us for a reason. Although I have been having a pretty good day, when I think of Faith today, I am sad and have an ache in my heart, but in a strange way I am just plain numb.
It is cloudy and rainy today, which doesn't really help my mood at this point of the day. However, I think I will let you all go for this time and go enjoy some time with friends.
It's ok not to be ok...it's ok to be numb for a season...