Ever since Faith went to Heaven, I have felt like laying in bed and crying all day every day. However, this is something that I simply cannot do. If you have lost a child, you know what I mean. Sometimes getting out of bed is a huge feat. Taking a shower makes me feel accomplished some days.
I know that everyone's loss experience is different. However, there is one thing that is the same, the grief is immense. You can fill all of your time during the day to keep your mind occupied. That has helped me a lot during the day.
However, when the day is through, then comes the night...in more ways than one. My mind slows down for the day and I cannot stop myself from thinking of Faith. I love her more than life itself. I want nothing more than to hold her in my arms everyday. But, I cannot. That is reality.
The reality is that every day I feel like staying in bed every day and being depressed. But for my sake, my husband's sake, Faith's sake, I simply cannot and must not do that. Faith's life must be a blessing and a light for others as long as I am on this earth.
Is it difficult, YES. Is it depressing, ABSOLUTELY. But the bottom line is this, all of us that have experienced this great loss, MUST not stay in bed. We must reach out to others in need. Love people, help people, share with people.