Normalizing Grief...that is today's Capture Your Grief topic. As I take a look at my grief journey, I suppose the thing that I look at as "strange" is that I slept with the teddy bear that was with Faith in the hospital for the entire year after she died. I still find enormous comfort in holding this bear, although I no longer sleep with it every night. It is strange to me that I slept with it every night for so long, and yet, it is not strange. I don't know if that even makes sense, but it does to me.
With every passing day, I read about others' grief journeys and realize more and more that there is no "normal" way to go through loss. It is normal to grieve, but we all do it in so many different ways. I am also learning that like everything else in life, my grief changes sometimes by the minute, hour, and of course by the day. Sometimes I choose to look back, remember, cry, and grieve. Other times, it sneaks up on me in an uncontrollable wave of emotions. Each time is different and yet special.
I know this teddy bear will always be one of my most prized possessions. This bear and the outfit I dressed Faith in on the day she was born, are the only items I have that touched her.
I love and miss you so much Faith.